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I'm Not A Monster Presents...

Josh Baker enters a dangerous world of fear, greed and betrayal as he uncovers what happened in one of the biggest missing-person cases of our time - the abduction of Austin Tice.

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Episodes

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Where Is Austin Tice?
A Message from Josh
Josh Baker with an update about his new investigation – Where is Austin Tice?
25 Aug 2026,1 min
The Shamima Begum Story
Trailer
Investigating the story of Shamima Begum.
04 Jan 2023,3 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
1. It Felt Like a Dream
A London schoolgirl disappears. Four years later she's found in Syria with ISIS.
11 Jan 2023,32 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
2. The Point of No Return
Retracing Shamima Begum's route reveals a dangerous smuggling network, but that’s not all.
18 Jan 2023,31 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
3. Double Agent?
The man who smuggled Shamima Begum to Syria claims he was spying for Canada.
25 Jan 2023,37 mins
The Shamima Begum Story
4. When You’re In Love
What convinced 15-year-old Shamima Begum to leave London for ISIS? And who?
01 Feb 2023,33 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
5. Empty Paper
The supposed paradise turns out to be a prison.
08 Feb 2023,34 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
6. Father Figure
With her husband in prison, Shamima Begum is left in the care of a stranger. Who is he?
15 Feb 2023,40 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
7. Trapped
Someone close to Shamima Begum is looking for a way out of the so-called caliphate.
22 Feb 2023,32 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
8. No Plan B
The so-called caliphate crumbles and a pregnant Shamima Begum is desperate to come home.
01 Mar 2023,29 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
9. State of Mind
Shamima Begum enrages the British public and ends up stuck in Syria.
08 Mar 2023,37 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
10. The World’s Unwanted
What happened to the girl Shamima Begum says convinced her to join ISIS?
22 Mar 2023,45 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
Our Live Show
What do you want to know about The Shamima Begum Story and the making of the podcast?
08 Aug 2023,1 min
The Shamima Begum Story
Josh Baker Answers Listener Questions
Your questions answered on Shamima Begum and the making of the multi-award winning series
29 Nov 2023,53 mins,
The Shamima Begum Story
The Court Decides
Was it lawful to take away Shamima Begum’s British citizenship?
23 Feb 2024,6 mins
I'm Not A Monster
Trailer
How did an American family end up in the heart of the ISIS caliphate?
13 Nov 2020,2 mins
I'm Not A Monster
1. I Love You, I Miss You
An American mother sends a desperate plea for help from inside the ISIS caliphate.
23 Nov 2020,20 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
2. Read Between the Lines
A man claiming to be a smuggler offers to help the family, but all is not as it seems.
30 Nov 2020,31 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
3. My Name is Yusef
ISIS releases a new propaganda video and all appears lost.
07 Dec 2020,24 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
4. She’s Like My Mother
Ten days searching war-torn Syria lead to an offer of help, but can it be trusted?
14 Dec 2020,28 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
5. We Had a Great Life
On a military base in Syria, Sam begins to tell her side of the story.
21 Dec 2020,30 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
6. Now I’m Calling the Shots
A torture prison, buying slaves and a dramatic escape: Sam continues her story.
28 Dec 2020,32 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
7. On American Soil
As she sits in a jail cell in Indiana, Josh confronts Sam about holes in her story.
18 Jan 2021,39 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
8. I Take My Book Back
Josh retraces Sam’s steps in Syria and asks could she have been an ISIS member all along?
25 Jan 2021,51 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
9. The Rest Be Damned
After years of insisting she’s innocent, Sam changes her story. Why?
01 Feb 2021,33 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
10. It’s All Behind Me Now
Matthew talks about his escape, his future and how he feared he’d never see America again.
12 Feb 2021,32 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
11. Epilogue: The Wounds and the Scars
What happened to the family Josh was staying with when an ISIS bomb struck their home?
16 Nov 2021,30 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
12. Those We Leave Behind
In Northern Iraq, Josh finds out how two people you’ve been asking about are doing now.
18 Jan 2022,25 mins,
I'm Not A Monster
13. Your Questions Answered
Josh responds to questions you’ve been sending us since the series finished.
25 Jan 2022,31 mins